Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Bloglovin'....The posts about New Years Eve celebrations and New Years resolutions are everywhere. It is always fun to see how friends and family brought in the new year. Most years I am celebrating with family and some years I have been with friends. This year I spent the evening curled up in a blanket watching movies in my apartment. I didn't watch the ball drop. I didn't blow into a noise maker or clap like crazy with twenty other people. I didn't have someone special curled up next to me.
This year I brought in the new year by thinking about what's to come. I pondered what the rest of my college experience looks like. I searched all over for possible ideas for a job to pick up this summer. I looked at various missions and ministry opportunities both domestic and international.
I spent New Years Eve questioning whether I am supposed to be somewhere else or if I am supposed to be here but in a different capacity. I brought in the new year feeling lost, feeling like I don't belong here at this university anymore. Feeling like I don't belong in this place anymore. I don't know if this is a God thing or simply me not feeling content with where my life is at the moment.
I don't know why my thoughts were in this area, but I do know that I need to really spend some time in the next week or so before classes start determining where I am supposed to be next. Maybe I need to open a new chapter. I have no idea. I just know that I am blessed to be where I am.
2014 was full of new people, new adventures, new memories...It was a full year. It was a year full of blessings I would have never imagined. It was a year that opened doors and a year that closed doors. It was a year of discovery, of myself, others, the world, and God. It has put me in all kinds of situations, some of which I am still working through as we start this new year. This past year was full of hellos and goodbyes, laughter and tears, successes and failures. This past year was a blessing.
Here is to a new year that will be full of all those things and so much more.
May 2015 bring you many adventures and blessings!!
Happy New Year!
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